I am sweating again now.. suana? shiok man

sweat and get wet! sounds wrong eh. But that's what I am feeling now after the hulla hoop without fan.

Watching Star Award.

Sigh, always feel kinda sad watching Star search and Star award. Envy... ? Probably I am jealous. =p

Wake up. Still dreaming?

I am so lazy! Only like to read newspaper and watch tv and sms and eat.

Why am I so lazy for the past few days.. alright shall recap my week with the help of my phone. What I can remember was working, meeting him at the end of my day, supper, chat and home. Bath, hula hoop and sweat and chat on the phone and sleep. Relaxing slacking life for me.

Mon- Tele for 11 hours, supper at Ahchew's dessert?
Tues- Breakfast with nic jon stef at tiong bahru, Dempsy for a latte, SP acc stef, tiongbahru for porridge with syl and his friend, saw 'Ferrari' then his place, then eat nice grilled dory fish pasta at.. (in my previous post)
Wed- Tele for 8 hours. Then yong toufu and dao huay zui for supper
Thurs- Breakfast with toufu girl, dabao fried beehoon mee from coffee shop near my place. Rush down to dance after work. Then to Chinatown Tangyuan for dinner-cum-supper.
Fri- Tele for 5 hours, meeting at Ben&Jerry with Azhar and the rest, then Fish&co.( Will only do that with him, went to Centrepoint and we saw that not many patronise that place and he concluded that the quality of food might not be nice. Went home to take his card as there's some promo, then head to Greatworld outlet to have the fish, finally.)

*feel paiseh to see your photo in my blog *
Sat- Went to mini showroom with him and his friend. Saw convertible cooper.cool huh~

I will be scared if you car looks like that =/ Anyway white seems nicer. quite nice though.
I also don't know what he's asking the person about. Can never understand why they know so much about cars...
Any car can sit and travel is good enough for me. Most importantly is who is the driver=p

Their tagline :ALWAYS OPEN
expected~ ?

Eat and eat. sp is getting bloated... ARGH! Can still run in this weather?

I haven't got my camera fixed. Argh... Not many pics in phone so no motivation to post.

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Doufu girl... can't wait for our outing! Am I really that crazy, probably quite 'high' at work. Keep singing and talk rubbish. Friends around me, what type of person do you think I am.. entertainer? Quiet? (not quite I think) talk a lot of rubbish? Not so. Sometimes? I am quite noisy with doufu girl and Jonathan at work. Probably just nice having fun with them, these rubbish makes time past faster at work don't you think so?

Emoing one of the night and I dug out my Discman to listen to ahlun.. Nope. Not thinking of him anymore =) Congrats me~



I am eating this while blogging. Oat plus blueberry grain-conflakes with hot condensed milk.

Weird weird. Suddenly got this weird feeling again. What's wrong. A bit of caffeinated feeling but I know the latte I took this afternoon should have leave my bloodstream. It's after what my mum said or rather 'complained' to me, I suddenly have this feeling- indescribable. Anxiety? -sigh-

bit trembling, lose control, increasing/irregular heartbeat and breathing harder. uncomfortable? well it's still better than the worst- plus cold sweat and turn pale. Sounds scary I know.. I am scared too. So I am here to post that if anything ... I really hope not. CHOYCHOY. er I know I think too much but every time when I have this feeling, just can't help it. You know you will never know.

For now I really don't dare to face my dad. I know that he is feeling troubled but he doesn't want me to worry. That makes me feel even more useless... what can I do? Do I even have a chance to discuss with you? Feel like doing what I want and not get affected by you two... I want to live for myself and decide for myself. Even if it is a wrong decision, just let me learn my lesson. You two can't just control me for a lifetime.

Don't want you to worry about me .. I will be fine when the sun rise. Ya study hard kiex~

Post the pictures in phone. Had fun working with toufu girl around. So much fun and laughter~ stupid faces...

I drew a face that resembles her expression


I know my drawing sucks...

This morning apb drove us to Tiong Bahru Market with his 'CheesyHondaJazz' for breakfast! Thanks for the wonderful breakfast sessions we always have. After breakfast went to jones @ Dempsy for coffee and scones and muffin. Love ya all~

One of my favorite breakfast- chee chong fun with yamcake
Famous lormee, prawn noodle, nonyazhang!

Had dinner at this french restaurant? Nice food with hidden surprising taste? ha didn't take pic of food.. on purpose, not that I have forgotten. Like the pic we took, you looked fierce tho..

so I post this pic instead...

Today you've created my ideal way of spending a Sunday with someone special. Simple and lovely, thank you.

Watched a movie, woke up and had breakfast(.. er lunch) at Holland.v then drove around town (dou dou feng~) then back to your house and play with your cousin's kids. You fell asleep before I could pat her to sleep. Watched tv while you took your nap. Frankly speaking at that moment, I wish that the time would stop a little while more... Then went out with you, met your friend for awhile and back at your home for a simple nice dinner. This Sunday will always stays in my mind.

That's what we had for 'breakfast'... Dim sum!

I love the white glutinous rice and egg tart and carrot cake and cha shao bao and xiao long bao~

This is one of the three kids. Adorable and fun to play with! (she is much cuter than how she look in these pictures)

Anyway I can't upload the pics of D&D and after party. Poor SD card is stuck in my camera. Post when I get it fixed.

However.. I still have my phone to take pictures.

Suppose to meet Sawanee and the rest at Vivo after my dance but I went to Cicada with Lea instead. (Ah li send me the photos) Unfortunately we are unable to go 2am after that cause suddenly feel unwell.

Drank 2 glass of champagne can make me a little blur~

Had 4-9 BBQ on Saturday

Huiqi and I didn't really touch the bbq food. Went out with her to eat her fishbeehoon. After eating, all went up to Yikhuii house to watched Stardust and Twilight. Some guys played majhong and the rest played XBOX in his room.

These fantasy shows made me have night mares. I dreamt of huiqi watching movie from tv and waiting for a pirate ship to come. It came twice. First is a red one but she rejected. The next on is in Red and White strips. Very nice... you wait for the ship to come while I am waiting for a car to come... Quite a scary dream as I felt that I am floating around everywhere. Lost and confused.


That's my toufu girl! She always say that I am too manly and muscular. Well her arms and legs feel soft like toufu~ eh do have people who prefer 'soft white and tender' kiex! We went to slack and had dinner at Subway ( healthier choice!)

Ps: Our supper at bedok 85 pics are stuck in my camera. Will get it out soon!

Check it out soon!

PS: No time to blog this few days, please stay tune during the weekends for new updates!

My style~

It feels like an extended long weekend! Anyway, my wonderful Friday starts at 5pm. You must be wondering why but I have no idea what am I doing the whole morning though. woke up at 11? then..blog and read newspaper? Think so.

Lea came to my house at 5pm! We are figuring out codes in Dreamweaver for her portfolio. Feels good when we manage to achieve it. Although there's still some error here and there. Anyway after that, she managed to 'psycho' me to club. I just have to get changed and she drag me out of house. I will be mistreating myself if I stayed at home whole day on GoodFriday. Anyway I just tag along, go there and have a look. At Attica, there's free entry and free drinks cause she just get to know someone who is holding an event/promotion there.


Typical clubscene?

Interesting combi though... Ed came too. He brought one friend with him.. eh Our ex? omy.. haha so I have three ex-es? Can it be just one? ops...

As usual, I left early =p
But I didn't head home... went to Marina Square to watch " Shinkjuku Inccident" with his friends. (MS, my memories of birth09! emo)

Then to supper. Never know this place existed. He's bringing me to explore the night spots in Singapore...er sounds wrong?

Hongkong cha chan ting

Ate 'breakfast' together huh... I don't want to be a supper girl =(

I say whatever I want to tell him, my thoughts my feelings. So far still alright. I am happy and hope he is too. Will he be the one who can really accept me. Be yourself when with someone you like- that is not easy. I seems to be single for very long time but in fact in 'status' (which I think its lame.. .it's only love or don't love. Why is there a need for status- then can do anything without obligations? haha), wise... eh I don't wish to continue this. I'm stuck here. haha

Is relationship like a performance, show how good you are, perform well in front of others. Giving by putting up a great show and receiving audience applause?
Nah just random. Thinking about 'giving' and receiving' ... can I don't think? Yes I can.


Saturday went to Lea's house to dig her wardrobe for D&D! Later he bought us to frolick, then send us to town. I got 'changed' and She bought a pair of jeans at fleshimp. Oh she got a lot of compliments from the NikeDunk she is wearing..cool huh. My stylish friend... (Hey forgot to take pic of your outfit!)

After she went St James, I went to Central, walked clarkquay, went frolick again (the blueberry flavour is really nice!), went marina at keppel bay-tcc. Wah. The night seems so long..

Ate ramen+salmon rice. They were really nice. (Let's go grilled-fishing some other time!

Drank this decaf latte wih rose buds (initially for him but this drink is just to pinky for a guy. Feels pink when I took a sip. Refreshing!) Let's exchange...

Nice day. Home sweet home.

TRUE?



Is that you stef? Not very..


How about you?

Went to court on Wednesday as a witness for bus190 accident last year, nothing much though. The other party's lawyer was a little fierce to me, ask me if I know how to drive or not... boo!

After that went to Heeren- my favourite shop that sells Jap in-house designer clothes. I just like the styles of their clothing..

Then met him and walk awhile... and I went off to do my facial! I gave my virgin face to her! haha. Anyway she is Serene's ex bf, brother's wife.

I got my blackheads squeezed out! Well not all but most of it

After everything, we went for a dinner. They had their dessert at MacDonald's and look...

There is a another cone inside the cone. Manufacturer's fault?

My day don't just end here. I went to meet him again with his friends at Outram area ktv... thanks for asking me to join in the fun=)

That's my busy Wednesday.

Thursday doing tele the whole day. Meet this tele girl, of my age. 20 years old, have a house, a husband and a 8month old baby girl. Woot.

And I do look forward to the end of my day...

Going to court =) mauaha..

ba"Too old to club"

Feels old..or have I skip the stage of being young and enjoy life? Haha.. I don't usually do what my friends do. For example...

watch gossip girls,
online and chat at night(very seldom),
play games in msn,
play wi wawa? (omy how to spell),
shopping,
online shopping,
appreciate branded stuffs,
clubbing...

I can't even drag myself to meet my friend for clubbing. The thought of it (the place the loud music the drinks...) makes me feel giddy and tired. Sleepy, tired and cab home, nah! I rather be at home, watch tv, read newspaper or a book, hid inside my blanket, talk on the phone and fall asleep...

Have I miss that phase of life? Or somehow I have skipped it. A few friends told me that if I don't' play now, I won't have the chance to when I grew older...

I ask myself why not? I can go to these places and enjoy with my husband, or even my children. As long as I dress younger, I can feel young again. If not I am sure I can enjoy by travelling and living under one roof with love ones.


But for now, I want to be independent first. Step out to the society and take up a real job. Support myself and my family then move on from there.

I blog whatever I want. How you inteprete is up to you.

As for my taggedbox, the topic of no smoke no drinking no gambling=good guy.

Well for me smoking is a nono. (er~herm). However, occasionally drinking is still alright. Who doesn't drink at all? Not those everyday have to open cans of beer, or keep drinking and make himself drunk. Other than that they are still acceptable. My dad also drink occasionally, and I don't see what's wrong with that. Still thinks that he's so manly to drink once in a while.haha

Gamble but not to the extend of very addicted to it. Never buy can die and keep mumbling about it. Or every week must gamble that will be.. not very good though. Once in a while buy toto 4D, I see no harm in it, just contribute a little more to the government, that's all.

"...Things will go where they're suppose to go if you just let them take their natural course. Despite your best efforts, people are going to be hurt when it's time for them to be hurt. Life is like that.....You try too hard to make life live your way of doing things. If you don't want to spend time in an insane asylum, you have to open up a little more and let yourself go with life's natural flow..... so stop what you're doing this minute and get happy. Work at making yourself happy!"

A letter from Reiko to Watanabe

From the book, Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami

Ono.. feel sad when you sound sad. I said see how cause.. if really tgt then I won't go lo. see how this month goes.. Omy why m i teating you like my bf... zzz feels like leh. But I really feel like going somewhere.. want to do some shopping and relaxing trip.. my close girlfriends can't cause of $$ (I have this problem too but I want to call like hell just to go for a trip) then my classmates going for some trip don't think have much cash to spare for another trip.. so far only my buddy can go with me.. bleh See how la. boo

I ran without my mp3 today, which means more thoughts running with me. I think about what I heard from people around me these few days. My buddy, the driving instructor, the creative director. Those words just made me think more more and more...

"Are you really passionate about advertising?"
"You can not see it as a job but something you really want to do and enjoy the process..."
"You will really have no life, go home late everyday and skip meals and no time to hang out with friends..."

It really is that scary but I know I want to be that busy. Want the client to be satisfied and see my work up there!

I don't know how long will this burning flame last but I don't want to regret not trying. Well till now I haven got his reply yet. -Sigh-

What's next? What's my plan for tomorrow? He's the only person that can stop me from planning what's next.


"Healthy, nice and patient and got money can already" . the instructor said. Agree? The guy love his daughter but slowly love his wife after her daughter is born- because she resembles her.

"Singaporeans can't afford to get sick. No matter how rich one is....sick that's it." So a healthy and wealthy and without temper, are these guys are extinct? The instructor shared a lot. "Get someone who loves you can already. He loves you more than you love him isn't that better. Like him or not, not important. He can give you good life drive his car or sit in a nice comfortable car and not like her (pointing a lady fetching his son on a bicycle) have to suffer because the husband cannot give her good life..."

He also shared about his friend.. 50 years old having a 20 years old girlfriend and they are going to get married soon. The guy can provide good life for the girl.. whats the reason for the girl to reject?


However I still think love is essential for a marriage to work.

What I want in life? Do I just wana married off and become a housewife? Am I ambitious? Want to do so many things but will age allows me to?


Recently I am reading a book.. well I have never see pornography but I read and visualise from what I read. All thanks to the books. Previous books i read also contain such content. Well the writers wrote them down like very casually and it really is nothing. Like nothing. Yeap it's just part of life.

But still I want to respect myself and stays...

Well I do think of you when I run...once again have I inspired you to run? Or you really don't want me to run cause too sporty and muscular? I do think of you a little during the day.Especially working time, it makes me somehow see the picture of married working adults looking forward to the end of the day to head home and see their love ones... its nice though, after a long day I can meet someone who wants to see me and ask how's my day. Fetch me to have light happy supper or see me to my doorstep. Nice and fortuante isn't it?