I don't know if it can work out for us... Exhausted. Mind and soul. Clueless about what's the next tiny creature thing that can crawl up and make us flip it around again. I don't know - that is what comes into my mind. Running away? Hide? Damn.

How I wish I can pause those nice moments. Just stop there and nothing else happens. That would be nice.


Few days ago....
I got a bad bad dream, its really hard to loss someone you love, or get mistaken and hated by the one you love. I dreamt that my mum hates me and mistaken me and see me as someone who has no pride and respect. She makes the whole world look down on me, and wants to "divorce" me. I cried so hard felt so hurt that my heart sank. Its mental and soul torture. Have always been getting this recently.


Sigh am not having pms, or perhaps I should say I have pms 24hrs a day, 7 days a week.


I need sleeping pills.......

Didn't continue my blog on TW trip... wanted to but (alright lots of excuses starts coming up). Boo anyway, just done with Lasik. Still have my shades on so haven really feel the convinience yet. Emo recently. Sigh, guess my PSM comes every day... WHO SAYS LASIK IS NOT PAINFUL?!?! It's hell pain for me, not the procedure of flipping the cornea upo but is the pressure from the machine to get my eye balls up, gosh its terrible. The aftermath "bruise" from the pressure of sucking my eyeball. Not that bad though hope it gets away soon.

Very first meal that I cooked for myself in my life. Looks good? Nah, its not cooked at all, I threw back to the pot to cook for another 30minutes. (stir till I got no appetite to eat already....)

PS: How I wish my bf can cook for me instead.....Paranoid. Needs 24hr protection. (bath, brush, eat .....) Out with bro the next day after first check up. Anyway dear pei-ed me too.

Taken on our second anni.... makan @ Aston Centrepoint

HAHA Drunk face but am not drunk. My first time drink till pulk. It shall be the last time I promised (to myself)

enjoying myself at Kino... (cool right!)

Nice car, love it.