我不明白。有时真的不明白。有谁能诉说呢？


Misunderstanding is caused by not being able to understand the other party. Agree?

我不明白。有时真的不明白。有谁能诉说呢？

What's this...



Nonstop phone calls and sms coming in in that 20 hours of my time in a day. Crazy?

Thats' when handling a pool of people.
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I am like bringing a troupe of man to fight a war.



Don't even have time to log into my blog or even kpoing facebook. I have to pull through this and move on!

I need more pictures here man. Sigh my BB can't upload photos in blog and all the pictures are in my mobile.



gosh?

Why am I like this?

Why?



Why do I exist?


I seriously..


What am I good for. It happens at work and at relationship. When I made a mistake, I react in the same way.

I withdrew. I feel like running away from the situation. Sleep on it and forget about it.

Will a Sorry save everything? Not everyone can give you a second chance, the second opportunity to try or do it. Can I just cherish what I have now? What more do I want miss Paige.. Hard on you guys.. Hard on those around and surrounds me..

Why am I here for?


How can I change?

What a 'dream like' simple weekend.

Friday was working at a dinner till around 12am. Next find them at keppel bay then head to zhu zha tang for 'dinner'. At my second home do work and slept.

Woke up and handle some manpower stuffs, and follow him to the temple (wanted to wrap popiah but we're kinda little late). peaceful nice happy people surrounds the temple.

Next had Udders with kent(his friend) and his gf. Mars honeycomb vanilla! Very nice...

Head to Oldtown for lunch! Meehoon siam nasi lemak teh tarik toast.

Thanks dear for sending my to another task for work. Go spot check my promoter at Thomson plaza.

Afterwhich catch a movie(lame pandora's box) Balestier then look around for ceiling fan and light for his room. Are you buying today?

Dinner with kervin and wife and his friend at toapayoh area, had western food- quite nice. (Still his hokkien mee nicer! Haha I mean dear's cooking =)

Gosh m eating the whole day.

After dinner went Gabriel new house for majhong. I didn't play but doing research for sff. Zzz that bunch of guys its so entertaining...

Oke banana prata for sss(super sinful supper).

Work and send out sms to part timers.Koon.

Woke up to work again(sigh my weekend is always burnt).

The kids were at his place. went out for 'breakfast' at 4plus. Came back and bought the kids to Botanic garden to feed tortoise. Bring them out for a walk, back home and they played again. Wanted to watch avatar but soon time for dinner.

After dinner send his uncle back, went ahchew for dessert then head home sweet home.

Am so sleepy and reaching office real soon!

Am I starting to have a taste of working life? Well just let me complain over here (gosh who am I talking to now?) Fb blogs etc.. Making it so exciting and interesting, what is it for? Attention isn't it? I once hate long para blogs. Write so much for what. Sigh well guess no one really reads my blog nowadays anyway.. Cause I got enough attention from someone else, that's why I am not trying to seek attention from any other sources or anyone else(apb made me realise this). And I blog and fb lesser cause I am tired and don't find a point to do that. Well I sounded old.

What I want to say to myself is whatever sht. No idea what am I talking about. Yea so my blog isn't interesting anymore and I don't really care. Just want to complain here .. Sigh when can I grow up? Or be a more useful and capable lady?

their problem is my problem. Never turn up for work, didn't perform well, no timesheet, no printer, no breaks no time to shit no whatsoever. Got check ups got family gf bf problem. IS MY PROBLEM. One never turn up for work or can't make it,I will have to search up and down text and keep calling ppl the whole morning(don't even have my own sweet time to put my moisturiser and choose my outfit for the day) to ask if they are available to work. Damn it sometimes still have to talk nicely and persuade them to help( wtf?). But I do have some really nice ones that can help or ask around and understand what I am going through. However that will be like one amongst fifty of them.

The accounts have no money to payroll for them, is my problem as well. I know sometimes it has been dragged some times but DONT RUSH ME. I not only have yours to do. Promoters, assistance, flyerer, traffic clickers, event runners, cordinators, brand ambassadors,packer... Hello. Its really a one-manpower agency.cordinating schedule and requests, ensuring all won't be late and turned up. Recruiting more ppl at the same time. Goodness I am doing one man show. Everything a little here and there, end up I can't do a great job for any deployment. Quantity and no quality I just felt such a failure.

The job is not that not fun, everyone has its own problem, that's life. That's how life have been challenging us to handle them. That's how one can grow and learn and be better.

I know I am irritating to keep complaining to my love ones around me, what's the point of complaining as they can't solve your problem. They can listen and makes you feel better. However they have their own problems too, but who is gonna listen to them? Can I listen?I am one of the problem so how? Never ending problems to solve.. That's just life I guess.
Am still young I still have the wilful side. I know myself that I did change quite a lot after started working and knowing you. Sometimes I just want to find myself back and ask why am I here for. Am I good for nothing? Why do I have no confidence in myself. But I always remember what Sawanee(a thai poly lecturer) said to me, she says she realise I am not that kind of flower vase, and I am hardworking. This motivates me a lot..everytime I feel useless, I will remind myself what she said.

Guess siuping really have to work the hardway in life as she isn't the worksmart girl so can only workhard.